Postpartum Depression

April 25, 2017

Why am I so sad? What is wrong with me? I don’t want to hold and kiss my baby… I must be loosing it! Why is everyone so happy? I must be really tired. Let me continue to post pictures online of my happy family so no one thinks anything is wrong with me… After already having three children, there is no way I could experience postpartum depression.

This was me not too long ago. I did not understand what was going on with me. I did not know that after already having three children, that I could experience the feelings that I felt. I was lost. I felt like I was alone. I did not know any other moms with the same feelings. Finally, at my breaking point, I called my doctor.

My doctor saved me. The conversation with my doctor was the best conversation that I had in a very long time. She let me know that I wasn’t alone. She told me that she has had many patients come to her with the exact same feelings.

But why isn’t anyone talking about this? Why are we moms afraid of letting the truth out about motherhood? Why do we feel pressured to be perfect and to raise perfect children?

Know that you are not alone!

According to the CDC, There are over 950,000 women suffering from depression or postpartum depression each year.

Symptoms of depression include

Lasting sad, anxious, or “empty” mood.

  • Feelings of hopelessness or pessimism.
  • Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness.
  • Feelings of irritability or restlessness.
  • Loss of interest in hobbies and activities.
  • Loss of energy.
  • Problems concentrating, recalling details, and making decisions.
  • Difficulty falling asleep or sleeping too much.
  • Overeating or loss of appetite.
  • Thoughts of suicide or suicide attempts.
  • Aches or pains that do not get better with treatment.

The symptoms of postpartum depression are similar to symptoms of depression, but may also include:

  • Crying more often than usual.
  • Feelings of anger.
  • Withdrawing from loved ones.
  • Feeling numb or disconnected from your baby.
  • Worrying that you will hurt the baby.
  • Feeling guilty about not being a good mom or doubting your ability to care for the baby.

Experiences that may put some women at a higher risk for depression include:

  • Stress.
  • Low social support.
  • Difficulty getting pregnant.
  • Being a mom to multiples, like twins, or triplets.
  • Losing a baby.
  • Being a teen mom.
  • Preterm (before 37 weeks) labor and delivery.
  • Having a baby with a birth defect or disability.
  • Pregnancy and birth complications.
  • Having a baby or infant who has been hospitalized.

Depression can also occur among women with a healthy pregnancy and birth.

Please be aware of your body. Please allow others to help you. Please do not feel ashamed.

It is time to let down the walls and support each other. Being a mom is not easy. Let us embrace this journey together.

Contact me if you need someone to talk to. Trust me, I know how this journey feels.

By Christine

Christine is a mom to four beautiful children, wife, and a homeschooler. Mothering isn't always easy, but I am surviving with a supportive husband, good friends and a lot of wine!


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    You’re an incredible woman and mother. I am SO proud that you addressed the PPD head on – that’s SO huge and now you’re sharing your story. I love you and know that you’ll be an incredible leader for others because of your open heart. Xoxo.

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    Well said!!

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    Congratulations Christine on you new website and Happy Birthday. I know what you mean. I’m sure others will be helped because PPD is real.

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    I haven’t met any woman that have had ppd or at least spoken up about it so I have never known the severity of it. It’s crazy how it’s not talked about but it’s so real that all woman should be able to express themselves and get help when needed! You’re so strong cousin! I would’ve never guessed you had to deal with this issue.

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    I haven’t met any woman that have had ppd or at least spoken up about it so I have never known the severity of it. It’s crazy how it’s not talked about but it’s so real that all woman should be able to express themselve help when needed! You’re so strong cousin! I would’ve never guessed you had to deal with this issue.

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    I just had my 4th child… I e had different levels of post partum with each one. I had my first when I was 22… no one told me that I was be sad after I had him… I thought something was wrong with me..I was embarrassed bc supposed to be happy! It lasted about 3 weeks then a little less time with the other 2 baby’s. Of course it felt like it lasted much longer at that time. I just had my 4th child 2 months ago… she was born at 22 weeks so of course she’s still in the hospital. I was such a mess! I couldn’t talk a not her without crying. I keep praying and seeking God but I felt like he was leading me to take medicine to help me through this time. I waited 4 weeks then I decided it was time to talk to my doctor. I just couldn’t function, I was embarrassed bc I am a high functioning person. I don’t think it’s wrong to need help. The medicine is really helping me. To juggle taking care of my 3 kiddos and visiting my daughter in the hospital. I’m not embarrassed about it anymore and I don’t feel like I’m letting God down bc I’m not praying enough or being a good enough Christian. Bottom line is my hormones were out of wack. Thank you for your honesty!

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    Thanks for sharing! I had post partum anxiety with my second child. It started about 2 months after birth and stayed for about a year. It was debilitating and scary! I had panic attacks frequently and could never turn my brain off to go to sleep. I wasn’t even worrying over the baby. It was just this heightened fear and dread all the time. I tried therapy and medicine. The medicine only made me depressed, which I hadn’t been feeling before that. I stopped taking it. I started reading my bible everyday, doing deep breathing exercises and slowly I started getting back to “normal”. Pregnancy and birth does so much more to our bodies than just stretch marks and deflated boobs. It’s important to talk about these things so other moms can be encouraged.

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    Thank you for being so open, honest and willing to start this conversation. It is easy to hide this side of our reality because too many people (mothers) act surprised or unaccepting of anything but “normal”. I was not prepared for the hormonal changes and emotional rollercoaster from baby #1. After baby #2, there were even more significant hormonal changes and a more intense emotional rollercoaster. The heightened anxiety levels are hard to deal with some days. However, I am grateful for a supportive husband, sisters and sister friends that welcome the conversation around postpartum depression and anxiety. This is so real.

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    Great post once again. I will recommend it be read by many moms.

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